I Don't Understand!!

I don't even now where to begin. Today we received conformation that I am no longer pregnant.... I miscarried at exactly 7 weeks. We are beyond SAD!! We never in a million years thought we would have to go through something as awful as a miscarriage. We were so excited for Logan to be a big brother and be expanding our family. Now that will not be happening. I know everything happens for a reason and this just must not have been meant to be. I just wish there was something I could have done to prevent it { even though I know there really is nothing we could have done differently}. I just want my baby back! I know it was still early in my pregnancy, but we fell in love as soon as we saw those two lines.

The past couple of days have been the worst days of my life! I now know what so many other women have had to experience and I can honestly say it is the worst feeling EVER to lose a child. I now know the pain and it is awful!!! I am so grateful for the sweet little boy I already have that is healthy and happy. I don't think I would be able to handle this whole situation the way I am without him. He gives me hope that it is possible to have a healthy baby and that things will work out in the end. We will get our healthy baby again someday {soon I hope}.

I am also so lucky to have such great family and friends that have been great especially my husband!!! He has been there when I just needed to cry and to hold my hand. Even if we don't talk...it is so comforting just having him near me. I know he is hurting too!! I am so glad we have each other. I would be lost without him!!

Now, We are just taking time relax and spend time just the three of us as a family. It is the best way I know how to deal right now.

6 WEEKS

I am going to try and do a weekly survey with this pregnancy. I tried doing this with my first baby but I slacked often :(. So I am going to do my best to document this pregnancy the best I can just in case this ends up being our last {we've always said we would only have two kids}.

I have not started doing weekly belly pictures yet but plan to here soon once I actually start getting a baby bump ;)


How far along? 6 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: I have yet to weigh myself so I'm not sure

Sleep: pretty good as long as Logan sleeps :)

Best moment this week: First OB appt is all set and we are feeling more and more excited about a new baby!

Movement: nothing yet

Symptoms: I am definitely bloated, gassy, lightheaded at times, peeing more frequently, and my boobs have grown some too ;)

Food cravings/aversions: no cravings or aversions yet

Gender: not sure yet :)

Labor Signs: none

Belly Button in or out? In

What I miss: nothing so far. I really don't feel pregnant. Not having nausea yet probably plays a big roll in that

What I am looking forward to: our first OB appt in September
Weekly Wisdom: Enjoy your pregnancy....not everyone is lucky to experience such joy

Milestones: baby is now the size of a sweet pea ;)

We're back!!

I know I haven't updated the ol' blog in a long while. It has been a busy last four {almost five} months! There are so many fun and exciting things that I need to write about. But for now I'll just give you the short version until I have time to actual upload pictures and go into more details.

First of all our sweet baby boy, Logan, turned ONE back in May!! I still cannot believe he is one. We had a great first birthday party with friends and family to celebrate.

The day before Logan's birthday party we signed the papers for our very FIRST house. The home searching process was long and stressful but no where as stressful as the renovating we had to do before we could move in. We have been in the house for just over a month and LOVE it!! It is starting to really feel like home. I know it will continue to feel like that the more we fix it up to be our own.

Little did we know that buying our house now would be such a blessing as we will need the extra space because....WE ARE PREGNANT again!!!! We are so excited to welcome a baby brother or sister for Logan in March.

Well there is the quick update. We are excited to take on this new journey of being home owners and becoming a family of four!!

10 Months

Logan is now 10 months old!! My baby needs to stop growing. He is changing every single day. He is such a happy little guy. He is constantly smiling and laughing. His smile just melts my heart!

Here is what Logan is up to at 10 months:

• Wears 12 month and some 18 month clothes. 12 month are starting to get too small :(

• Now has 3 teeth! Two on the bottom and one on the top. The 4th tooth is working its way down too.

• Loves to look at books. He will not sit still for us to read to him yet but he loves to look at them by himself.

• Plays very well on his own. I love to sit and just watch him play with his toys.
  

• Babbles ALL the time! Usually says "Momma or dadda"

• Sleeps through the night again. Only wakes up once in a while but is usually able to put himself back to sleep. This is much better than before when he would be up 4 to 5 times a night.

• Is fascinated with turn off light switches. He has to turn off the lights ever time we leave a room.

• He got his 1st real haircut this month. He now looks like a little boy and not a baby anymore. Weird that a haircut can do that!

• Wants to walk SO BAD!! He tries walking all the time. He can take 4-6 steps pretty easily before falling. The pass couple of nights he has even taken 12-15 steps. He can stand up without holding on to anything and just walk. He will walk a few steps, fall but get right back up and try again. After falling a few times he will just crawl to where ever he is trying to get to. He doesn't really like to hold on to our hands and walk. He wants to do it himself! He definitely is getting better and better every day though. It won't be long before he is completely walking.

• has started to drink some milk in his morning bottle. I mix it with his formula. He doesn't seem to mind the taste at all.
  

• loves to do chin ups on the shower bar after his bath. He laughs so hard when dad puts him up there....so cute!!

Logan is just the sweetest baby ever! I am so excited to see him continue to grow and change. He is at such a fun age but I know it will just get better and better. I can't wait to see what this summer has to bring. He will be big enough to go to the beach and out on the boat. He loves water, so it should be a very fun summer!

Sweet Ride

Like my new wheels??

Destructive!!

Boy oh boy...Logan sure knows how to make a mess! He gets into EVERYTHING and anything. I feel like all I do all day is follow behind him and pick up messes. Here are some pics of the proof.....

Looks like a tornado hit our living room :)

Off to find something else to play with leaving a trail of destruction behind him

Wordless Wednesday

The boys wearing their sunglasses because "It's too bright inside!"

9 Months Old!!

My baby boy is 9 months old as of Valentine's Day. He is just the sweetest little guy ever. He is changing every day it seems. Growing to be such a fun, independent little dude.

Here is what he is up to at 9 months:

• still wears size 4 diapers
  
• weighs 21 lbs 14 oz (75%)
• is 29 inches tall (75%)
• wears size 12 months jammies, 12-18 month shirts, and most pants are 12 months

• has started eating Gerber 3rd foods.....he is not too sure about the chunks though. Sometimes he gags :)
• eats four 6-8oz bottles a day
• sleep pretty well.....more often than not he sleeps through the night
• was really sick for about a week with a really BAD cold and ended up with an ear infection. He even had his 1st high fever (103 degrees)....SCARY for Momma!

• Loves puffs, Gerber lil' crunchies, diced pears and peaches, bananas, apples, graham crackers, noodles, Cheerios, Nutrigrain bars, whole grain waffles with cream cheese, yogurt, french fries, mac n' cheese, toast, and cheese
• still doesn't like veggies much (unless they are pureed...then he will eat any kind)
• pulls up on EVERYTHING and even has started cruising the furniture
• loves to help Momma do the laundry

• is obsessed with his refection in the mirror. He will babble and kiss the baby in the mirror for hours we let him
• can say "Dadda" now....dad is very excited about this
• can also give kisses when asked (and by kiss we mean he comes at you with his mouth wide open, tongue out and slobbers all over you)
• is starting to really like books

We just love this little guy more than we ever imagined we could!! He is our whole world and cannot imagine our lives without him in it.

Wordless Wednesday

Logan and Gwennie


Logan and Ty napping together.....too cute!!

Wordless Wednesday

Helping Mom do laundry

8 Months Old

WOW.....where has the time gone??? My baby is now 8 months old as of the 14th!!! He is is no longer a wee little baby. He acts so much more like a toddler these days. He changes everyday I swear! He is at such a fun age. He wants to be able to do so much and he is finally able to do some of those things :) We just love watching him learn and figure out new things.



Here's what Logan is up to at 8 months:

• weighs somewhere around 21 lbs (will know for sure at his 9 month appt on Feb. 14th)
• Wears size 4 diapers
  
• Now wears all 12 month clothes. He can fit is 9 month onesies though
  
• Started getting up on his hands and knees and rocking 12/20
• Said his first word....."Momma"!! (1/8/11) It is not completely clear and more like a mumble but sounds just like Momma
• Officially started crawling (1/10/11)

• Now eats breakfast, lunch, and dinner
• He eats, puffs, Gerber Lil' crunchies, diced peaches and pears, yogurt melts, cooked carrots, baby goldfish, cheese, pasta noodles
• Still working on the sippy cup. He now tips it but just not as much as he needs to. He will get it eventually

• Was waking up anywhere from 2-6 times a night. But we just switched his crib sheet to a velour one and he now only wakes up 1 or 2 times a night. I think the cotton sheet was too rough, he would wake up with really red bumpy cheeks. Not anymore :)

• LOVES playing with his toys.
• Babbles all the time now. Especially when he is playing...real cute!
• Started pulling up on any and everything. No cruising the furniture yet :)
• He LOVES that cat. He chases and corners her all the time. Poor kitty HATES it!!

• He is a crawling machine. He follows us EVERYWHERE!! Loves when we open the fridge, so he can check out what is in there :)

Wordless Wednesday

He loves his bath time with Dadda